Aloha mates~ :D I'm finally back in Singapore , was away for holiday recently to visit my relatives and spend Christmas with them! (I swear my keyboard hates me for abandoning it for so long, I can't seem to type properly!) It felt nice to be able to go back and visit my relatives, but I certainly do miss all my friends over here in Singapore. Something to note is that, I didn't managed to attend the first ever Christmas party over at my friend's house, it's a huge shame! :( Oh well, I shall wait for next year, and make sure I attend my class parties if anyone should organize again! I still have yet to decorate a Christmas tree, poor me!
Anyway, the bus ride back was a little disturbing for me and it made me nauseous, given the traffic jams with those constant go-and-stop movements. In any case, I manged to reach my destination safe and sound, and of course, on time! :D I tried to study on the bus, but I've failed terribly because the journey is bumpy, and I can't seem to write and focus my attention on the words, my mind kept drifting to somewhere, which I have no idea where. I have a huge problem sleeping too >.< something is seriously very wrong with me. Sigh. Well, I don't mind that so-called tough journey I've had when I go back home, it's fine because I get to taste my aunt's cooking. I was welcomed by delicious dishes for dinner, I couldn't stop eating, and that explains why I've gained weight, AGAIN >_> Home cooked food is always the best~ My mum should seriously cook more often. Now that I'm back, I'm gonna miss those dishes real badly!
I'm actually very lazy and tired to update, but I shall try to update as much as I can for today. I'm gonna divide my trip back into a few posts, so that I don't have to cramp all the details together, reading thousands and thousands of words can make people go crazy! I went to catch "Alvin and The Chipmunks 3" with my cousins when I was back there, it's a really nice movie, and I got to admit, I love it! :D Filled with excitement and fun, a movie I don't regret watching~ I bought quite a lot of things on my first day to the mall, and ended up not buying anything for the rest of the trips to the mall T_T smart me. I think it's just my excitement acting all over me. I didn't go out the next day and stayed home for the entire day, just one word to describe: BORING. I buried myself in my textbook and in the planning of my group activity. I can die from all the stress, not so serious, but somewhere close. Yeah, glad I get the planning done, just need to try it out to see if it works. I have to say, I have sweet blood, very very sweet! I attracted tons of mosquitoes when I was back there, and my legs look ugly now, but it's fine :)
I'm gonna study now, shall update again. Peace out! xoxo
Friday, 30 December 2011
Monday, 19 December 2011
SMRT Breakdown.
I haven't been posting for quite some time, was really busy helping out the seniors with their Dare To Care campaign as well with projects. Though I'm busy, this week has been pretty alright for me, at least I lead the week happily :) There's just one issue that makes me really mad- people are demanding the CEO of SMRT to resign. Seriously, I don't think there's a need for that, it's a move that I don't support nor recommend. I was reading Yahoo! News the other day and came across this article, which makes my blood boils.
In any case, I'm sure the CEO shouldn't be held full responsibility for the disruption of the MRT services, it's pretty obvious that she is also having a hard time dealing with these incident, and as a nation, why can't we be united and help each other out, or at least emphatize with those who are actually being so stressed up with this issue? No doubt, SMRT has its faults due to this incident, but the CEO did nothing wrong. She didn't plan for this to happen, she didn't cause this as a result of wanting to sabotage her own job, her own reputation. I don't get why people want her to resign. Does her resignation makes those who are frustrated feel better or forget about this incident? NO. What will people think if she just resign? How is she every be able to lift up her head again? Once she resign, everyone will label her as the "fault" for this breakdown. She don't deserve this, all people think about is wanting someone to bear responsibility. Yes, someone has to bear responsibility, but definitely, not to blame the CEO fully for it. Maybe this time, she did made a mistake, maybe she overlook some technical issues, but did anyone actually consider the amount of stress that she is feeling right now, at this very moment? Do you really think that being a CEO is an easy job? To err is part of life, she is a leader of the company, yes, that's true, but which human being on Earth has not committed a slight mistake, even if it's a small one? I don't understand why people should give her a "death penalty" just because of this incident. I believe in giving others a second chance, let her prove to the nation that she still has the capability to lead and to ensure that everything of SMRT operates smoothly. When the train services are working normally, bringing people to places that they wished to go, sending them safely to their school or workplaces, nobody bother to even thank those who worked round the clock to ensure the transport networks are fine. When the train services broke down, people start to rant, start to complain, start to push the blame to someone who is going through a hard time as well. Stop for a moment and think, who want this to happen? Be grateful that the there's still bus services and taxis around to pick people up, be thankful that the service are resumed back to normal.
In any case, I'm sure the CEO shouldn't be held full responsibility for the disruption of the MRT services, it's pretty obvious that she is also having a hard time dealing with these incident, and as a nation, why can't we be united and help each other out, or at least emphatize with those who are actually being so stressed up with this issue? No doubt, SMRT has its faults due to this incident, but the CEO did nothing wrong. She didn't plan for this to happen, she didn't cause this as a result of wanting to sabotage her own job, her own reputation. I don't get why people want her to resign. Does her resignation makes those who are frustrated feel better or forget about this incident? NO. What will people think if she just resign? How is she every be able to lift up her head again? Once she resign, everyone will label her as the "fault" for this breakdown. She don't deserve this, all people think about is wanting someone to bear responsibility. Yes, someone has to bear responsibility, but definitely, not to blame the CEO fully for it. Maybe this time, she did made a mistake, maybe she overlook some technical issues, but did anyone actually consider the amount of stress that she is feeling right now, at this very moment? Do you really think that being a CEO is an easy job? To err is part of life, she is a leader of the company, yes, that's true, but which human being on Earth has not committed a slight mistake, even if it's a small one? I don't understand why people should give her a "death penalty" just because of this incident. I believe in giving others a second chance, let her prove to the nation that she still has the capability to lead and to ensure that everything of SMRT operates smoothly. When the train services are working normally, bringing people to places that they wished to go, sending them safely to their school or workplaces, nobody bother to even thank those who worked round the clock to ensure the transport networks are fine. When the train services broke down, people start to rant, start to complain, start to push the blame to someone who is going through a hard time as well. Stop for a moment and think, who want this to happen? Be grateful that the there's still bus services and taxis around to pick people up, be thankful that the service are resumed back to normal.
Wednesday, 7 December 2011
Forgiveness.
The reason why I'm talking about forgiveness is due to a group activity did by my friend today during lesson, it was a meaningful activity, which really got me emotional and reflecting on my own actions as well as the extent of forgiveness I'm willing to give to someone and myself.
I was being asked, "What's your definition of forgiveness?" There were quite a number of answers for that in my mind when I was being prompted to answer, but the answer I gave was "To let go of the hurt that someone has inflicted on you and continue to love and respect that person." It wasn't that difficult to share with people my thought on forgiveness, but having to change the words into actions is a tough task, and I admit, I'm not good at that.. There's 2 sides of forgiveness I'm talking about here, one is the forgiveness towards myself, and another aspect would be the forgiveness I can offer to others, like my friends and family. Maybe just to say, I find it easier to forgive others than to forgive myself.
I've encountered several times of heartbreaking and hurtful moments in my life and those days were the hardest to get by. Those harsh words, criticizing remarks, bringing me down again and again with all those comments, making me feel plain useless and that all the faults were sparked off by me. I kept quiet, the silence was quite enough to indicate the degree of pain and hurt that were inflicted upon me, but keeping quiet doesn't mean I don't care, keeping silent doesn't mean I agree with you, and most importantly, keeping my mouth shut doesn't give you a continual right to verbally attacked me. Those days, were even worst than stepping into a haunted house in the amusement parks, you get lost, you screamed, you shout and you get scared. The main point is that there are people around you who can hear your cries of help, and you will eventually make it out of the eerie place with the help of other people, ALIVE. On the other hand, in reality, things weren't as easy or as simple as taking a walk in the haunted house. People around you might not even bother to stop and ask you what's wrong, no signs of encouragement, no words to make me feel safe, nothing. The darkest times of my life should, and have enough reason for me to hate the person who have done such a thing to me, but no... I chose to forgive that person because I know I'm only freeing myself from hatred and revenge if I'm able to let go and forgive that person. I chose this path, because I know, it will lead me to a better place, a better future.
I do forgive people easily, and still treat them with love and respect no matter how deep they have hurt me in the past. I don't believe in holding onto grudges. Why fill your life with all the negative thoughts, making it overflowing, and end up having the backfire effect on yourself? If I don't forgive, I think I will just hate and turn myself into a monster that none of my friends will stay with me. I forgive, because the relationship I have with that person is more important than my own pride, my own ego. I don't want to lose someone just because of a slight mistake that they have done, neither do I want to let go of someone who means so much to me. It's pointless and just not worth it to actually let your life filled with hatred. Only by forgiving others, I gain a better understanding of the person, that's worth it.
However, I can NEVER forgive myself on the hurt that I've put upon to another person, it's way too much of a mistake that I can let go. I'd rather hate myself for that mistake and remind myself that I will not do so again. The ONLY person that I find it hard to forgive is myself, because I know, if I were to forgive myself, I never learn from my mistakes. Even if I know I'm able to prevent myself from making the same mistake again, I still wouldn't forgive myself. It's never a task in my life, I was never capable of forgiving myself. I can't forgive myself no matter what because my actions are the cause of the hurt that other people feel, the reason why their dreams are crashed. Frankly speaking, I always thought that I can forgive myself for my wrongdoings, but after today's activity, I know I can't. It's way too difficult to convince myself that I can forgive myself. Maybe I choose not to forgive myself, so it doesn't give me the chance to hurt others again. I bury myself in all the mistakes that I've made, overtime, it gets overloaded, but that's the burden or consequence I have to bear. I'm highly critical towards myself, no matter how hard someone tries to persuade me to forgive myself, it's always gonna be impossible.
"Forgiving myself" is like a mission impossible to me, every time I try to forget about the incident, or try to have a small debate in my mind to forgive myself, I've failed, I've failed terribly... I can't do it, I've tried countless times and the results are all the same, and now I'm tired of trying to forgive myself..
I was being asked, "What's your definition of forgiveness?" There were quite a number of answers for that in my mind when I was being prompted to answer, but the answer I gave was "To let go of the hurt that someone has inflicted on you and continue to love and respect that person." It wasn't that difficult to share with people my thought on forgiveness, but having to change the words into actions is a tough task, and I admit, I'm not good at that.. There's 2 sides of forgiveness I'm talking about here, one is the forgiveness towards myself, and another aspect would be the forgiveness I can offer to others, like my friends and family. Maybe just to say, I find it easier to forgive others than to forgive myself.
I've encountered several times of heartbreaking and hurtful moments in my life and those days were the hardest to get by. Those harsh words, criticizing remarks, bringing me down again and again with all those comments, making me feel plain useless and that all the faults were sparked off by me. I kept quiet, the silence was quite enough to indicate the degree of pain and hurt that were inflicted upon me, but keeping quiet doesn't mean I don't care, keeping silent doesn't mean I agree with you, and most importantly, keeping my mouth shut doesn't give you a continual right to verbally attacked me. Those days, were even worst than stepping into a haunted house in the amusement parks, you get lost, you screamed, you shout and you get scared. The main point is that there are people around you who can hear your cries of help, and you will eventually make it out of the eerie place with the help of other people, ALIVE. On the other hand, in reality, things weren't as easy or as simple as taking a walk in the haunted house. People around you might not even bother to stop and ask you what's wrong, no signs of encouragement, no words to make me feel safe, nothing. The darkest times of my life should, and have enough reason for me to hate the person who have done such a thing to me, but no... I chose to forgive that person because I know I'm only freeing myself from hatred and revenge if I'm able to let go and forgive that person. I chose this path, because I know, it will lead me to a better place, a better future.
I do forgive people easily, and still treat them with love and respect no matter how deep they have hurt me in the past. I don't believe in holding onto grudges. Why fill your life with all the negative thoughts, making it overflowing, and end up having the backfire effect on yourself? If I don't forgive, I think I will just hate and turn myself into a monster that none of my friends will stay with me. I forgive, because the relationship I have with that person is more important than my own pride, my own ego. I don't want to lose someone just because of a slight mistake that they have done, neither do I want to let go of someone who means so much to me. It's pointless and just not worth it to actually let your life filled with hatred. Only by forgiving others, I gain a better understanding of the person, that's worth it.
However, I can NEVER forgive myself on the hurt that I've put upon to another person, it's way too much of a mistake that I can let go. I'd rather hate myself for that mistake and remind myself that I will not do so again. The ONLY person that I find it hard to forgive is myself, because I know, if I were to forgive myself, I never learn from my mistakes. Even if I know I'm able to prevent myself from making the same mistake again, I still wouldn't forgive myself. It's never a task in my life, I was never capable of forgiving myself. I can't forgive myself no matter what because my actions are the cause of the hurt that other people feel, the reason why their dreams are crashed. Frankly speaking, I always thought that I can forgive myself for my wrongdoings, but after today's activity, I know I can't. It's way too difficult to convince myself that I can forgive myself. Maybe I choose not to forgive myself, so it doesn't give me the chance to hurt others again. I bury myself in all the mistakes that I've made, overtime, it gets overloaded, but that's the burden or consequence I have to bear. I'm highly critical towards myself, no matter how hard someone tries to persuade me to forgive myself, it's always gonna be impossible.
"Forgiving myself" is like a mission impossible to me, every time I try to forget about the incident, or try to have a small debate in my mind to forgive myself, I've failed, I've failed terribly... I can't do it, I've tried countless times and the results are all the same, and now I'm tired of trying to forgive myself..
Monday, 5 December 2011
RETAIL THERAPY!
Yo people! :D Today is a pretty unique day for me because it's the "no styling of hair" day for me! Yep, that's right, I didn't style my hair today for school, it feels weird in the beginning, because I don't go to school without doing my hair. Today was my first time since I made a promise to my friends that I will not style my hair today! I expected shock reactions from my classmates, but they reacted pretty well today, and most of them said that I look the same even if I don't style my hair. Some suggested that I keep it natural, and not style my hair anymore! I shall consider that, since it's really bad to style my hair often, but what's gonna happen to my gel? I can't just leave them in the lurch like this :( In any case, I think not styling my hair is better for me, I feel less stressed when my hair gets messed up..
School today has been really awesome. Some of my friends and I had KFC for lunch, I think we spend around $56 for the meal, I think it's all worth it because they are quite a number of people we wanted to eat. I ate a shrooms burger, 2 pieces of spicy chicken and some popcorn chicken. There goes my weight loss plan, I feel guilty for eating fast food, but I ate it anyway. I can always burn the fats and calories away, and for 2 weeks, I shall have no more fast food. It's a promise I'm making to myself now! I wanna stay healthy! :) Having fast food once in a while is alright for me as long as I know how to move my ass and exercise! Because of the guilt that is bothering me, I called up my cousin to exercise with me, it's better and more fun to have a partner when you exercise, you will feel more motivated and less tired! We had a game of soccer, and I did around 520 times of skipping, hopefully this helps to chase some calories away. We gain weight faster than we lose it, so unfair! >.<
I stayed in school for my projects meetings, it turned out to be staying back for fun and entertainment instead of doing projects because I got a little distracted, my bad! SORRY! :( But I'm glad that my group mates help me out and get me a little more focused. So... I got bored and decided to look for my friend, Hamizah and started disturbing her, trying to seduce her (this is what I usually do to her), and I ended up being the "barbie doll" for her and Wanying, they stared tying my hair up, doing braids and clipping part of my hair here and there O_O It was a fun experience though. I got a shock, I SWEAR I got a freaking shock when I looked into the mirror, that's like another me, a TOTALLY different me. Those who witnessed my "new hairstyle" said I look pretty, but no, I disagree, STRONG DISAGREEING to it. That word is never suitable to be used on me. I feel funny with my hair being tied up and I refused to take pictures, so my friends decided to "spy snap" me and turn into "photo-taking ninjas"! They are so adorable, I don't know who had those photos, so it's a huge pity that I can't post them up here.
Since my project meetings ended pretty earlier, much earlier than what I expected, me and Wenting went for a walk around Somerset/Orchard area, which explains why today's blog title is retail therapy :) (Goodness gracious, I have HUGE difficulty in spelling the word "therapy", I got it wrong most of the times I tried to type it out!) We walked around Somerset, and today marks the first time I entered H&M, I feel more Singaporean now. That outlet was pretty alright, the shop is well-furnished and decorated, but I find the prices a little too high to be afforded by me, so we just walk around and left. I think it's a shopping spree for Wenting today, she brought a pullover, a white beanie and a checkered shirt, and I could sense the urge in her to buy clothes for New Year! ^^ Oh, both of us got a pair of friendship watch, she got a green one while I got the blue one, and she said purple looks gay one me T_T Since we are around Orchard area, we decided to drop by at Artbox and pay Wanying a visit as she's working there. We pretended to be part of the shop's customers and "disturbed" her. She got a shock when she saw us there, like totally surprised! Her reaction was priceless, love it! :) Wenting bought me a Spongebob pencil case, it's a gift from her to me, woah, she is awesome and a good sister! And I have to comment that Wanying's servicing skills are really good, she's polite and patient towards the customers, which is a really good thing! Keep up the good work! :)
I shall start to revise my work now, have a good night ahead lovely people! :) Peace out! xoxo
School today has been really awesome. Some of my friends and I had KFC for lunch, I think we spend around $56 for the meal, I think it's all worth it because they are quite a number of people we wanted to eat. I ate a shrooms burger, 2 pieces of spicy chicken and some popcorn chicken. There goes my weight loss plan, I feel guilty for eating fast food, but I ate it anyway. I can always burn the fats and calories away, and for 2 weeks, I shall have no more fast food. It's a promise I'm making to myself now! I wanna stay healthy! :) Having fast food once in a while is alright for me as long as I know how to move my ass and exercise! Because of the guilt that is bothering me, I called up my cousin to exercise with me, it's better and more fun to have a partner when you exercise, you will feel more motivated and less tired! We had a game of soccer, and I did around 520 times of skipping, hopefully this helps to chase some calories away. We gain weight faster than we lose it, so unfair! >.<
I stayed in school for my projects meetings, it turned out to be staying back for fun and entertainment instead of doing projects because I got a little distracted, my bad! SORRY! :( But I'm glad that my group mates help me out and get me a little more focused. So... I got bored and decided to look for my friend, Hamizah and started disturbing her, trying to seduce her (this is what I usually do to her), and I ended up being the "barbie doll" for her and Wanying, they stared tying my hair up, doing braids and clipping part of my hair here and there O_O It was a fun experience though. I got a shock, I SWEAR I got a freaking shock when I looked into the mirror, that's like another me, a TOTALLY different me. Those who witnessed my "new hairstyle" said I look pretty, but no, I disagree, STRONG DISAGREEING to it. That word is never suitable to be used on me. I feel funny with my hair being tied up and I refused to take pictures, so my friends decided to "spy snap" me and turn into "photo-taking ninjas"! They are so adorable, I don't know who had those photos, so it's a huge pity that I can't post them up here.
Since my project meetings ended pretty earlier, much earlier than what I expected, me and Wenting went for a walk around Somerset/Orchard area, which explains why today's blog title is retail therapy :) (Goodness gracious, I have HUGE difficulty in spelling the word "therapy", I got it wrong most of the times I tried to type it out!) We walked around Somerset, and today marks the first time I entered H&M, I feel more Singaporean now. That outlet was pretty alright, the shop is well-furnished and decorated, but I find the prices a little too high to be afforded by me, so we just walk around and left. I think it's a shopping spree for Wenting today, she brought a pullover, a white beanie and a checkered shirt, and I could sense the urge in her to buy clothes for New Year! ^^ Oh, both of us got a pair of friendship watch, she got a green one while I got the blue one, and she said purple looks gay one me T_T Since we are around Orchard area, we decided to drop by at Artbox and pay Wanying a visit as she's working there. We pretended to be part of the shop's customers and "disturbed" her. She got a shock when she saw us there, like totally surprised! Her reaction was priceless, love it! :) Wenting bought me a Spongebob pencil case, it's a gift from her to me, woah, she is awesome and a good sister! And I have to comment that Wanying's servicing skills are really good, she's polite and patient towards the customers, which is a really good thing! Keep up the good work! :)
I shall start to revise my work now, have a good night ahead lovely people! :) Peace out! xoxo
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| This is my new pencil case! Spongebob! :) Thank you, Wenting! |
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| My new blue watch :) Looking good on me! |
Friday, 2 December 2011
ANG KU KUEH FEVER!
Hello lovely people of mine! :) I was supposed to attend a family violence conference at MBS, but I can't make it last minute because something happened at home. I spent the entire at home, staring at the computer, revising my work and eating. I'm so gonna grow fat!
Anyway, I got my cousin to come over and accompany me and we started doodling random pictures on Paint! It was so much fun, we drew fishes, and a "portrait" on nature. I think both of us have deprived childhood! Despite that, it was entertaining to me, at least it kept me off my books for some time! I shall continue with my doodles after this!
AND! I suddenly fell in love with ANG KU KUEH! :) The red colour is so attractive and most importantly, it's very tasty! I've never really liked that last time, but somehow, something made be craved for it this evening, so I went to get one at 60 cents! :) The price was reasonable and I love the chewy feeling in my mouth, together with peanut fillings! I will head to the foodcourt soon just to get that! So after dinner today, I went down and have a game of soccer with my cousin, and guess what? I was the goalkeeper, and both of us agreed that I should stretched out my leg and maintain in that position as I take on the role as goalkeeper. Just as I was trying to save the ball, I accidentally did a split, and I over stretched my leg muscle. I let out such a loud scream, and started rolling on the ground. IT'S SUPER DUPER PAINFUL! >.< Omg, I swear I will not do that again, a sudden split kills. I have difficulty walking now, poor me D:
I shall go off and play with my Paint now :) Have fun everyone! Peace out! xoxo
Anyway, I got my cousin to come over and accompany me and we started doodling random pictures on Paint! It was so much fun, we drew fishes, and a "portrait" on nature. I think both of us have deprived childhood! Despite that, it was entertaining to me, at least it kept me off my books for some time! I shall continue with my doodles after this!
AND! I suddenly fell in love with ANG KU KUEH! :) The red colour is so attractive and most importantly, it's very tasty! I've never really liked that last time, but somehow, something made be craved for it this evening, so I went to get one at 60 cents! :) The price was reasonable and I love the chewy feeling in my mouth, together with peanut fillings! I will head to the foodcourt soon just to get that! So after dinner today, I went down and have a game of soccer with my cousin, and guess what? I was the goalkeeper, and both of us agreed that I should stretched out my leg and maintain in that position as I take on the role as goalkeeper. Just as I was trying to save the ball, I accidentally did a split, and I over stretched my leg muscle. I let out such a loud scream, and started rolling on the ground. IT'S SUPER DUPER PAINFUL! >.< Omg, I swear I will not do that again, a sudden split kills. I have difficulty walking now, poor me D:
I shall go off and play with my Paint now :) Have fun everyone! Peace out! xoxo
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| My peanut filled ang ku kueh :) it's so nice that I'm craving for it again~ |
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| My cousin and my artistic piece of work. Paint is so entertaining! ;) |
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