Back To Work!

The title will sounds more appropriate if it's "back to school", oh well, don't be surprised. Let me just explain myself! I went for job training today and the experience was amazing! The staff were friendly and patient, they took the time to explain to me about the operations of the shop and what to do when customers enter and leave the shop :) I'm thankful to have such lovely colleagues! Oh, just before I forget, I'm working at Artbox. The entire training lasted for about 2 hours, and the encounters with the customers were a good learning experience for me. It feels great to be thanked by the customers when you've helped them to search for an item that they want, at least I feel appreciated! Another thing that excites me is when I have to say "hi, welcome" when the customers visit the shop, it's so cool, don't ask me why, I have no idea, I'm gay this way! I feel happy when the customers reply me or when they simply just smile back at me, that feeling cannot never be described with words. It has been years since I've worked, and right now, I'm glad to say, I'm glad I interviewed for the job, it feels great! I'm looking forward to start working next month :)

I'm finally going back to school again tomorrow! Feeling excited because I get to see everyone again after such a long time. I miss this class more than any classes I've been in! I'm pretty keen to know who's gonna be in my group. I admit, there are some types of people whom I can't work with, but I will not change to another group just because I can't work with a certain type of people. I will try my best to work with them and to produce work that are of high standards! Who knows, I may be wrong, I might just be able to work well with them ;) In any case, they are all my classmates, so it doesn't really matter who I work with, at the end of the day, we are all helping out one another!

I'm having some issues lately, and I figured out that it revolves around the word "honesty". It's good to be honest, but sometimes, it costs badly when you are honest at times. The consequence might not be within your expectations, and it might just be something so hurtful and torturing for you to handle. I was being honest with someone few months ago, and I thought that my honesty will pay off, little did I actually know that it backfired on me. It costed me a friendship which I really treasured a lot. I've learned my lesson, and not to be overly honest with someone, guess I didn't really learn. The same old thing happened again today, I was being honest and told someone the truth. I want to be honest, I don't want to hide things, especially towards someone whom I love greatly, it's just not right. I didn't exactly lose this person, but I know the hurt and pain are there. Life is difficult, my parents, teachers and friends all encourage honesty, but they didn't tell me that I have to pay the price for being honest. It's a good value after all, why are there even negative effects? That's when I came to realized that, it's really hard to not be honest with someone. The guilt and betrayal you feel inside will bug you every single day. It's a torture. Although I'm at the risk of losing this someone, I still chose to speak the truth. That's the only way I can be true to myself, to this special someone.  It's trust.