AWESOME!

HELLO to everyone who's reading my blog. I think my blog is pretty dead recently. Oh well, my apologies, I shall make it alive once again :) Just been superbly busy and kind of lay to update. I'm back!

I LOVE TODAY! I guess it's a really meaningful day for me today because of the group activities my friends organised. They did a really a good job :) For my activity, it was somehow within my expectation and somehow not within in. I missed out quite a number of times, and I think it's a little messy when I facilitated and conducted the activity. In any case, I will work harder for my final ICA activity and make sure I consider all the factors and all the possible outcome of my activity. I need to really come up with a fun & interesting activity for my exam, I need a HIGH ENERGY activity! *cracks my brain* AHHH! I did trust fall today, and the demonstration really brought back many memories...

Anyway, I really love the activities my friends had for today. One of them was about our hurts and pains in life, which was a really good platform for me to reflect on my life and see all the mistakes I've made as well as all the regrets I have. As I was writing and reflecting, I became all emotional and sensitive, I actually teared. I don't think anyone noticed it since I didn't have the intention to show it to anyone, it's gonna be a little shocking and weird if I'm just going to be the only one. Oh well, I still held back my tears. Those hurts, pains and secrets that are within me are taking their toll on me, although sometimes, I managed to forget about them just for a short period of time. No point avoiding, since my problems will always make their way back to me. All my coping methods are basically just to smile whenever I'm with my friends, relatives or family, and of course, to continue to be the crazy, hyper and funny me, which everyone has witnessed it! I do admit that most of the times, that is the real me, however, there are times which that personality is just a mask for me to cover up my real emotions. Everyone has this mask that they wear, I don't wish to take mine down for the time being because it's going to do more harm than good. My friends and family are just going to get more worried if I were to show my REAL and TRUE emotions, which is something I don't want it to happen. Suffering in silence alone is not a bad thing anyway ;) That activity really got me reflecting and I still kept that paper in my "heart" (plastic bag to be exact :P )

Another activity was meaningful for me too! Saying "I'm awesome" and mean it is not the style for me, given the fact that I NEVER see myself as that awesome, I'm way too far off to be called "awesome" or anything close to it. I don't wish to be awesome, I just want to be normal and people will accept me for who I am. These are the 2 statements I made during the activity:

"I'm awesome because I'm pretty optimistic when I encounter problems in my life."

"I'm awesome because I can care for my friends and family without asking for anything in return."

I'm not exactly sure if people will agree with the statements above. For the first statement, I think it's true to a certain extent, I mean, there are bound to be times when you are just a little down and pessimistic, it's all due to the pessimistic moments that made me optimistic. For the second statement, personally, I think that is 100% true. I can go all out for the people I love because they just mean so much to me. Without them, I'm nothing, without them, I will not have come so far and be who I am today. The 2nd part of the activity was a really touching moment for me too! I have my flaws, that's for sure, everyone has that. Being able to hear from my friends and lecturer about my good points made me feel appreciated, at least I know, I'm not entirely useless. And being able to have the opportunity to comment about the good of my friends, it's a good way to show that I really appreciate them, it's just that, I'm not sure if they can really feel it, maybe they don't. BUT I DO. 

I love having hugs from my friends, hugs speak a thousand words. I feel so warm and loved in their arms. Alright, ANYWAY, before we walked out of the school, I spent some time at the school's atrium to "shop" for food. Everyone was so hungry the food seem to appealing to us. I bought a cup corn and a chocolate cake, it has chocolate powder, chocolate ice cream and a thin layer of chocolate cake at the bottom. IT'S SUPER YUMMY! I shall get it again and share with my friends. IT WAS JUST LIKE A FOOD FEAST FOR US! I need to control my appetite now, I managed to lose 4-5kg in a month's time, so now, I need to maintain my diet and work out routine so that I don't gain back the weight I've lost. 

AND! I've gotten my Pastamania card today, and they gave me 2 vouchers. One $10 vouchers for pizza, and another $5 for the pasta :) Whee~ which means I can drop by anytime before February next year to enjoy my pasta and pizza! 

I shall go now, I need to complete my projects and do some revision before I head to bed. Knee is hurting badly, sad life for me :( Have a good night everyone! Sleep well! xoxo

I think my colorful socks is very attractive, but it doesn't go well with this pair of shoes! 

This is my pastamania card and the 2 vouchers! :) YAY! 

The plastic bag represents my heart and the white paper is filled with my pains and hurts in my life. I'm gonna keep this with me so that it remind me not to make the same mistakes again.