Bullets & Knives.

Those days when things just don't seem right, people are out there to put you down, and expecting so much from you. Yes, they just think that you are some super hero with the ability to withstand everything. But hey, why demand so much from me? Can't you see that I'm avoiding all those unnecessary incidents that might just surface? Let just say, give me a break. You've got you team, I've got mine, so we are good. If things are not going well, let it be because I am somewhat tired of dealing with all these things over and over again. There's just something missing, and I don't know what is it.

People change, places change but the memories remain. I won't blame anyone for changing, but for the good or for the worst, we have no control over at all. The thing is, people have to realize that he/she is changing, and to know whether the change is desirable or simple undesirable. You might not see it, but those around you can feel it. We all feel the change but we just don't want to spit out the truth, hoping that you can see it and figure it on your own. Not sure where all this is going to lead us to, but whatever is it, let's just have our own lives. I noticed the change in me, and I know it might not be something good, so I'm still trying to change for the better. But do you know that you've change? Whatever your answer is, I'm no longer interested. I'm too tired to even think about what went wrong, I just want to live in this moment and not give a damn about things that's gonna affect me.

Okay, that aside. Next thing, have you ever chase after something that you thought was worth chasing for? You continue chasing it, but halfway through, you realized your efforts have all gone to waste, what will you do? Will you continue with the chase? Or just stop at where you've left and wait for a better one? The thought of wanting to give up is strong, I don't know if I've already given up or I'm just suppressing everything. I don't know if I'm denying or I'm really alright with it. In any case, I know I'm fine like this, so I guess I shouldn't exactly probe and harp too much on this. I guess I've already given up.