Confession: Words.

I have this sudden urge to just have a post dedicated to those close ones around me. I have no idea, probably tonight it's just another emotional night for me, but I'm perfectly normal. I just ended a game of L4D2, and I have no clue that it has the ability to make me so emotional. Hmm, seems like I need to redefine the meaning of shooting games in my life, oh well..

To you:
I'm sorry that I've unknowingly caused pain and hurt to you, I'm sorry, I really didn't mean to. I just want to be the person whom you can count on whenever you need someone to talk to, someone who will always be there for you no matter what. Maybe it was just wrong timing again, but my intentions were clear, I didn't have any hidden agendas. I miss you, the number of times that you appeared in my mind everyday are simply countless. I miss you everyday, and whenever I think about the things that you've said to me, I smile, because those words mean a lot to me even though they are special. You've gradually become the reason behind my smile. Things have changed between us, we used to talk everyday and I love waking up every morning just to send morning text to you, but the current us, it breaks my heart to even think about it, we're complete strangers. Despite that, you still have a very important place in my heart & I still care a lot for you.   I left you alone even though that's not what I wanted at all, but if that's all I can do to make you happier, I will continue to lead my life the way I'm leading now. I know you won't be able to read this, but if you ever do, I just want to let you know that, I miss you...

To you:
I'm no longer angry at you, but for the fact that we are not talking, I'm sorry. I needed some time, it's my own issue. I'm not mad at you for breaking the promise because if we were to touch on this topic, I should be more guilty than you should be. I understand the reason behind your actions, and I will stay by your side, just like how you did when my world turned upside down for so many times. Right now, I just need some time alone to think, to gather my thoughts. I don't want to use that as an excuse to make things worse, but that's really what I need. I guess it's more like a counter-transference to me because one of the very important promises that I adore was broken, and this time round, it triggered me to react this way. I'm sorry, but I will fix things back to how they should be. I need to get over this hurdle. In the mean time, I just hope you will not do it anymore because it will break the hearts of many.

Yeah, so I'm done.. In the meantime, I hope that all those who are affected by Sandy will stay strong. Please stay strong. I will pray for everyone who are caught in this disaster. <3