Yeah, that's right.

I have no idea how to express what I am currently going through at home. I hate how you always think that I am still a 8 years old kid, not knowing what I am doing. I know in every parent's eyes, a child, no matter how old he/she is, the individual will always be a small little kid to his/her parents. This is how parents think, and I can't change how my mum thinks either. It is just a torture having to do everything according to her standards, according to her mood. It makes me feel like I am a robot more like a human at home. I have to act in accordance to her commands. If this is some sort of a "training" for me, training me to be a more responsible adult in the future, I appreciate the effort, but honestly, it's the wrong method.

I had a quarrel with my mum this morning over the issues if I am going back to KL during my 2 weeks break during June. It's not exactly a holiday for me because I have to meet with my group members for projects and head to work. That's the reasons why I told my mum I can't go back and I won't go back. I don't want to sacrifice my school work for the sake of fun. If it's for about 3 days, I will consider going back, but not a week.  Yes, I have many things I wanna buy and the only way I can get them is to go back to KL with you, but I won't. I don't want to be selfish and leave my projects to my friends while I enjoy life over in KL, it's unfair. You asked me what kind of a holiday is it that I have to stay in Singapore and can't go overseas. It's not a rule to say that I can't go overseas, it's my choice that I don't want to go back. I want to stay here. You will be overseas by then, I need this short break to complete all the things that I want to, just so give me this break. I know what I am doing, I want to focus on my studies and projects, so I hope that you can give me this slight respect towards my decision. Stop scolding me or get angry at me because it will not change my mind.

Mothers' Day is awkward for me because I am not in a positive relationship with my mum and I am avoiding her at home. We will bound to get into unnecessary or what I will describe as "I never get the chance to say how I feel" quarrels, I just don't want to have a "black face" at home, but somehow, I always end up having this face, it's my signature face at home nowadays. I really, honestly hope that you will, one day, understand what I am going through in school as well as at home, but I know this day will take a long time, or maybe, it will not even come, because it's so hard to change the way you think..