Emotions.

I'm a super emotional person, I wouldn't deny this, and I tear/cry really easily. Play a sad song and tell me about a sad story, you'll trigger the floodgates in me and I will start to tear. I've watched "Titanic" for several times and I always cry, without fail, though I wish I can control my tears a little better! I've cried while watching a comedy too >.< I don't know why I am this emotional, maybe I'm just too in touch with my feelings. At first, I really detest it when I cry 'cause it's like sending signals for people to "attack" me since I am weak. However, after going through so many lectures, I've finally realized that it's not weak to cry, on the other hand, crying is a way of being vulnerable to a person, especially someone close to you. If they can still accept you after seeing the weak side of you, they are truly someone to be kept in your life for good :) 

Other than the fact I love to cry (I only cry at certain times, so I'm not a cry baby!), I get jealous pretty easily, especially when I'm in a relationship. But, I have to emphasis that I'm not those type of "I'm jealous so whatever belongs to me will be mine and I will do anything to keep you away from my lover." This is the very extreme point of jealousy, and personally, I really can't stand people who do silly things due to overflowing jealousy. Yes, it's really hard to contain the jealousy when it comes, sometimes it's just able how you  handle it. I'm actually pretty glad that I know what "jealousy" is all about, at least it shows that I'm actually caring for that person, and that person is important to me! Like the saying goes, "Jealousy kills", I will do anything to control the jealousy that I'm experiencing and will not commit wrongdoings just to get revenge from the other party. 

There's no bad emotions, it's just about how you handle the emotions and what you do when you have those emotions (I feel like I'm going through one of the lecturers all over again, I'm school sick, for once!) I do get angry, like which human being don't get angry, it's just about the intensity. I have a friend who rarely gets angry, I admire her for that, she has such good temperament. I don't get angry easily, but towards my sister, I do get mad pretty easily, or rather annoyed. Sometimes when I'm angry, I cry (see, just proven that I love to cry, AGAIN!), if it doesn't help, I will just listen to music. MUSIC IS MY BEST BUDDY! When I was younger (probably a few years younger than I am right now), I used to punch the walls when I'm angry 'cause I was still immature and unable to sort out my thinking well, hence, resulting in me venting my anger on the walls. I don't like to talk to people when I am angry, I will just say the wrong things and make things worst, and regret my words after that. Well, now that I have better thinking skills, I'm not going to turn to the walls anymore!  

Oh, and I LOVE BEING HAPPY! This is the best feeling every, agree? AGREED! Sometimes, I just love the feeling of smiling non stop no matter what the cause is. It's a really awesome feeling. I can get happy over so many things, ranging from tiny little stuff to more important stuff. Let me give a few examples. I can get happy over leveling up when I play a certain game or defeating the enemy/monster/boss/beast/zombies in a particular level. As long as it gives me a sense of accomplishment by doing something that's right and not against my conscience, I am happy :) And I can get all smiling and happy when I know that someone gives birth, I love the feeling of knowing a newborn baby has arrived to Earth, it's a joyous occasion. SOMETHING THAT WILL MAKE ME REAL HAPPY is remembering my birthday and just wishing me :) Don't it just feel great knowing that someone actually bothers to remember your birthday? (without the help of Facebook). 

In any case, I've been through the mostly all the emotions stated above today, except for jealousy. I'm still handling well, I guess. I'm going to do some reflection later at night :) Peace out! xoxo