What Hurts The Most..

I often see in Twitter about what hurts the most in our lives. "What hurts the most is seeing the one you love, love another". Yes, I do agree that hurts, but this is not the only thing that hurts the most in our lives. I've been hurt a thousand times in my life (okay, maybe not so serious, but still!) and I realized the most hurtful thing for me is seeing my friends suffering in silence and yet I can't do anything to make them feel better. The pain and hurt that they feel, all the unfairness and resentments, there's nothing I can do to make them feel better. Yes, I can always offer them my advice and listening ear, and of course, there's a chance that they will feel better, but you know, humans are capable of hiding their emotions, they can tell me they are alright now, but who knows what's their true emotions when they have their backs against you?

What hurts me the most is the fact that my friend chose to keep her own troubles to herself, not intending to reveal anything to me or those who are close to her about what's on her mind and what her problems are. Suffering alone is painful enough, and now, she chose to suffer alone in silence, pretending that she's fine, pretending she's alright and giving a smile that has no true meanings behind it. I don't like to see my friends faking their smiles, because they are not truly happy, I don't feel good seeing my friends faking their smile just to make me worry less. The more they fake it, the more I will worry. I know I'm not a superwomen who can make people happy with just my words, that's why I try my best to share my happiness with my friends, to the people I love. I'm not the most optimistic person ever, but I'm willing to give me optimism to my friends to help them through all that they are going through..

To my smurf sister, 

You've changed so much ever since I met you and get to know you better. You're so much stronger than you were before, and I am glad that you are doing things and making decisions that will bring greater happiness to yourself. The road ahead of you might be tough and tiring, and at times, you may just feel like breaking down and give up, don't, because you might be just another step away from what you've always wanted to achieve or hope to see. You just need to have faith in yourself, because you are the only one who can determine how your future will work out eventually. All I can do is the give you the support, encouragement and advice that you need. You construct your own future, and I just wanna say, you're doing a good job. Press on, you will eventually find the light that you've been fighting to hard to just catch a glimpse of it. I just want to let you know, you're really amazing, and thank you for always being there for me, especially those times when I just feel like giving up on my life. Please always remember that I will always be here for you at any time that you need me! 

To my Texas chicken, 

When are we ever gonna have our Texas chicken date? It has been months ever since we arranged for the chicken date to occur. Anyway, jokes aside, I will be super serious now (rare sight of me, I know!). I'm not exactly sure what turns through your mind nowadays, all I know that you are not feeling good. Pain and hurt just suddenly decides to knock on your door recently, but don't be afraid, you have friends around you who will fight together with you to defeat them and help you stand up strong again! You are stronger than this, we all know it. You may fall, that's not important, what matters is that you are willing to give yourself another chance to stand up again! Nobody likes to be alone, I'm sure you are no exception. You know I'm just a phone call away, if you need someone to talk me, I'm always available!