ALOHA!

I'm finally back from the TCM. I almost fainted during the process of rubbing, twisting and turning my leg. It hurts super badly! I saw stars and there's double vision. I could have fainted there. The pain was unbearable and at the very instant, I just feel like breaking my leg. The beginning of the process was alright, I could still handle the pain, but as the physician continued rubbing, the level of pain simply just increased. I wanted to scream, but I held back since I don't want to embarrassed myself  as there are many people around. I was tearing and stuff, and was clinging onto the pillow case so tightly. I wanted to runaway..

Shall not talk about the treatment process anymore, it just triggers the pain even more. My walking speed is so much slower now and I have no idea how to make it to school on time and alive. I need to wake up earlier, and decide which transport mode I should take. Travelling is just so inconvenient for me right now, I just want my leg to recover faster! Why am I so playful? Sigh, I guess this is one important lesson learned. I think my mum feels that my leg injury is very minor, she asked me to help with housework, and I climbed up and down the ladder just because I need to clean to topmost of the cupboard. Oh well, I can't blame her, because this is my responsibility as a member of the family. Family assumption #1: A change in a family member affects all of the family members.  In this case, my injury has caused a certain amount of changes in my parents' and sister's behavior. Hmmm...

Anyway, I saw this super cute and adorable little girl at the TCM. I started to play pee-ka-bo with her and she responded quite well to me. At first she was all shy and didn't want to play along with me, but as time passed (which is like 2 mins later), she joined in with me. She was hiding behind her parents and at the same time, tried to peek at me and see if I'm doing the same to her. I love the smile on her face as I was playing with her, it makes me feel good since I'm a future social worker associate, and working with children is inevitable. She's really adorable, she continued to play with me until it's my turn to see the physician. She even waved goodbye to me. AH! How adorable can that kid be? (Pfft, I sound like a pedophile now!) I'm gonna start to think and reflect on which group of people I can work with, probably children and elderly :) I can't really work with families because I'm scared to have a counter-transference especially on cases related to domestic violence. I shall see how things work out, meanwhile, I just need to handle my own emotions well and find solutions to the problems that I've been avoiding. How am I supposed to provided help to the others if my own issues are not resolved? WORK ON IT ELAINE! 


I'm gonna my fringe trim later since my mum keeps complaining about how long it is, I hope I don't look weird with a slightly shorter fringe. I'm off for now, byebye! xoxo